2 days...

Tuesday

The weather has been really good lately. Nice sunny weather and windy and cloudy as well. Last evening – it was perfect weather. But today it’s a bit cloudy and looks like its going to rain. Either way I like it this way. Fish said that its because the winds are coming from the north bringing good fresh wind. That I don’t know. During Christmas or in December the weather is always nice and lovely. That’s all I know.

Just another 3 more days for Christmas then a week then 2010… I couldn’t find a live tree around so in the end I just passed the buck to my sister to get an artificial one. She said she saw one in 1U or somewhere where the tree comes with the lights together on it. So don’t have to put our own Christmas lights. Last time they were just simple – either its green or white, tall or short, bushy or rare…. Now I wouldn’t be surprised if the trees can be transformed into a box or something like that – so when you need it just press the button and wooosh….the tree is up complete with the ornaments. WTF.

Had a surprise call from JML late last night, a surprise call. Just called to wish me Chit chat for awhile and hung up. Nothing. Hmm…

I sound cold over the phone? Hmmmm… maybe I should have lighted up more ciggies and made myself hot? Called to remind me of something and I thought I was the one suffering from ‘not being able to forget’ and ‘too many memory recollection’ sickness. Can’t believe she’d remember what happened a year ago. Nothing to it but just to insinuate me I guess and knowing her, YEAP, heartless. Well people do easily forget. They do.

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I saw a remote control helicopter selling cheap in Parkson. WTF!! A CH 47 Chinook with RC and it was like less than RM150. Hmm… is it as small as my palm or what? I got to check it out. I have bought any presents yet for anyone. I do have a small list, thankfully. Maybe I’ll just give my sisters ang pau instead of going out and buying anything. Don’t feel like going shopping or maybe afraid that I might splurge on unnecessary things like perfume (I need one), shirts and t-shirts (I need more), jeans (maybe I don’t need any), socks (I need one), shoe (working shoe yes) and other stuffs that I would normally buy, simply. Oh yeah and I got a Jaya Jusco voucher worth RM160 which I got from the Xmas party. Well maybe I’ll go check it out.

I was watching UP the last 2 days and it was ok. But I got to admit that in the first 10 or 15 minutes, it was really sad. Actually I thought the boy was dreaming about it actually until I realized ‘oh shit’ he has grown up and all that did happen and he’s old and grumpy. Sad Sad… but I was thinking about the sad part and how true it is or could be in the lives that we live in now. Instead of chasing your dreams and the things that you really wanted to do you end up postponing it until one day, its just too late. The rest of the plot was alright and I got to admit that ostrich or what ever that animal was and the dog…they were both funny. Hehehe….

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Wednesday

Headed to MP in the end for Moo’s farewell party after deliberating on 3 or 4 other places. In the end we ended up where we always end up which was alright. Drinks, food and ciggies and the people. What else can one ask for? Although I didn’t particularly like the idea of playing pool towards the end. Rather sit down and having everyone’s talking to everyone. Can always play pool another day…. But it was all good. Then moved on to Stadium, just like old days and had our fix there and continued until past midnight. Stomach weren’t feeling so good and was tired as well – just managed to pull it through until the end. Fish kept to his word and paid for the food and it was much lesser than we anticipated. He was so lovie dovy with his girl friend. I assume it’s the beer effects or maybe he is one but just pretends like he despises his girl friend in front of us. Hehehe… I think we had good time last night. Just to re live those times we used to sit at stadium until the even placed an empty crate for us to fill up with the beer bottles. Until it was time to close. Crazy times. All comes to an end now.

The last 2 days has been quite stressful and I think I better cool down before it overwhelms me. Straining myself and those around me. What do I do when I’m stressed? Just shut down and be a stone faced unemotional ass. What else to do? Who to turn to? Everyone is having some sort of problems one way or another. But in the end we all just hang out together and forget about all the stress, temporarily. Walk out of the RM door and leave the work stress and pick up our personal stress? Hahaha…

Speaking of which, even the dude who sits in front of me is stressing me out. He is probably on the hated list of every customer service oriented businesses in Malaysia. Always got some sort of problem with someone. Yesterday he was really stressed the daylights out of me. I totally understand his situation that he’s having with his daughter’s condition. I totally understand and feel for him and his family regardless of what my thoughts are. However to bring all that issues into the office and screwing up a hospital or god knows who else this time loudly over the phone – that’s not ethical. I was cracking my head over something and all the sudden this. Gosh. I just had to move away before I lose it.

Anyway…

Damn… another month of expenses coming up plus it’s a long month.

My car needs servicing and best part the central alarm system is getting screwed. Shite.

Even my phone was giving me problem. Yesterday I had a missed call sms at around 11 when I was at stadium and there were 7 calls that I missed since afternoon until 10. WTF!! I had my phone with me all the time and calls did come in as well - 2 overseas numbers and 5 local with 2 office numbers. Well I’m sure they’ll call back if it’s important, I assume. The ringer has some issues too. Phone ringing and you answer and start talking and suddenly it jams and goes back as though there’s an incoming call. Then got to answer again. As though there’s ghost in it. Usually Prem, Indie and Fat would be the victims but Fat is the only one who’d get annoyed the most. Last night when it happened I almost snapped at him and just told him I’ll call him back – I was in a jumpy mood. This morning my alarm was ringing but no sound from it. Last Tuesday after badminton, I was just playing with it and turned on the camera which weren’t working and suddenly it was working. I was like – Wow…Yay… that was temporary cause the next day it didn’t work anymore, until today. Indie said maybe I need to update my software. Maybe he’s right. I think I’ll check for the software updates. I kinda like the phone – its easy, simple and nice.

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Sister was telling me in the morning that she got the tree and how she had to walk around looking for a good one etc. I still haven’t seen it yet since it was still in the box. I think it should be up today and I can foresee Annie having a good time with it and breaking it.

I really love this weather and every time I look out from the office window, it looks so beautiful and nice.

Another party today? Somehow I don’t really feel like it. See how the mood is by evening. Ralphie will be off from tomorrow and Deeps and Indie already started. Moo’s last day on Thursday and I think the rest are working. Not sure if Ayatollah will be going away though. Don’t seem like it.

Should be going for mass on the even of Christmas and hopefully my sisters would prepare some nice dinner. I think they would. Gerry called the other day and asked if I’ll be coming for mass. I assume I’ll be meeting quite a lot of other people there as well. Some of them, I haven’t met for the longest time.

Dom came back as well and called yesterday but hung up before I could pick it up - 5 rings only. I guess some things didn’t change :) Fat has been telling me too since he has been going around with Uncle recently for work and Gerry told me the other day as well. Yeah everyone’s back.

Told Fat that I’m going to lessen down the drinking, partying and settle down. He laughed at me! Bastard. Hehehehe….

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One part of work is almost 90% completed on the article side. On the sales side that’s a different story. Hmm…. It’s going to be a crazy time when January comes. Jan – Feb – March will be crazy but got to really thread through it, thoughtfully and carefully.

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Ralphie can really cook! He made tuna pie today and yesterday he made pasta. Both were superb. Damn bloody good. Considering that I’m not really a pasta person but I still ate it – then it must have been nice. The other day he made for us Banana muffins when we went over to his place. I think when I get my own place I’m going to learn to cook and be a good chef, in preparation to be a house man. Hehehehe…..

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Why do people always jump to their own assumptions? Sigh.

Chow

Lazy...

Such a lazy day but intentionally lazed up day. Whatever that means.

Woke up almost to 12 and I knew it’s going to be a super lazy day, its just one of those days. I sat in my bed and was thinking what I’m going to do today…. Nothing. Thought I’ll watch some DVDs and none of the movies were appealing to me although there’s like 100 over CDs that I haven’t watched yet. Decided to grab a couple more CDs to add into it. Yeah…when I got nothing better to do.. I do that. So off I went to Amcorp although I have no idea why on earth I need to go all the way there when I could just head to Hartamas or Bangsar to get some movies. Anyway, so I drove over, while talking on the phone, getting stuck in the jam, driving like a slow but steady ass. Took me like 30 minutes just to choose the movies – because I had no idea what I want to watch. Crap…

But it’s a day when customer service people would really appreciate me. Due to my laziness, I was totally lazy to even say no or scold some one or what ever. Called my CC hotline and I was like super nice to her and I could practically hear her smiling as I was just talking to her. Best part, I didn’t have any idea what I was talking about. I was just walking around the mall, hand phone on one hand, the other in the pocket and eyes wandering aimlessly around. After all I wanted to do was to check on my balance and I ended asking about the latest promo, how’s her day… WTF!! Flirting unconsciously. Got my CDs and was even patient enough to wait for it because the dude from the store apparently couldn’t find one of the old movies that I choose. Walked down to the hypermarket to buy some cigarette and again waited until the guy manning the counter returned from whatever he was doing. Wow,,, total brain shut down due to laziness? While walking outside the promoter smiled from afar at me and waited until I neared her and I smiled back at her gracefully as though she’s my long lost friend or something… but then at the very last moment, I just blurted no thank you even before she could open her mouth. Hahaha…. Phew… Brain still working.

Felt like everyone around me is being lazy as well and moving lazily around. The world seemed to be moving – lazily. Ok WTF.

I guess I just need the quiet and rest after 2 days of going out, booze and ciggies.

IFN last issue was supposed to finish early but due to some unforeseen circumstances that involves a certain individual who thinks that her tongue is better than others and in the process becoming the 2nd most hated figure in the company and improving to take the 1st spot – had to show her idiotic, unscrupulous attitude again and the whole thing got delayed again. Just like I mentioned in my earlier posts about how people’s action could and possibly influence others around and that was exactly what happened. Everyone was waiting to go home, the feeling of ‘bittersweet’ since it’s the last issue and it’s a long weekend, some of us to go for some quick drinks and maybe food – basically they were all in the mood. When that happened, it all changed. Given chance some might have exploded and there might have been bloodshed. Yeah do dramatic. Anyway, so that’s what happened and it was delayed again although not as late as the usual Thursday’s but slightly off the mark from what was expected or thought. But well, that’s how things work :)

Friday was a day spent at Sinds to hole some wall and help her in bits since she has shifted to the Saffron which is just like couple of minutes away from me. So she has practically become my ‘couple of minutes’ neighbor. Indie joined in as well and just to waste some of our ‘abundant’ time decided to play a few round of snooker.

The club launch at Heritage Row was ok ok. It seemed like an Ah Beng joint though. But I did see 1 or 2 happening girls with their ‘batangs’ of course there. Miow.. they were hot. Anyway…just had our free beers and was out of there before the music turns us into some zombie.

On Saturday I felt like it was Sunday. So it took some time for me to tell myself that I should turn on my Sunday lazy mood and Oh shit it’s Monday tomorrow attitude. Headed again to Sinds place for lunch, had couple of wines, chit chat a bit with her friends and left. Just took reasonable amount of alcohol since there’s another party to go for in the evening. Just enough to keep the ‘feeling’ going. She got a nice place there and while I was there I was busily applying my own “IKEA build my home’ concepts. How I’ll decorate the hall, tables, sofa’s, this and that. Hmm.. Interesting. I like it. Ralph’s got a nice place as well. Beautiful place and damn he can bake well! Maybe I should invest some money and bring KAD and Ralph together and start of a baking company and sell them. I can call the company….Hmm… The Baker Company.

Food at Premo’s place was good. Yummy. Ate a bit too much and it took a while before they got digested or shoved further inside my intestines and make room for the beers. Didn’t even keep track of time and we were the last to leave the scene and that was almost like 430 or something. Crap. Luckily I wasn’t as knocked out like in Ciccio. It was just nice steam. :)

Dropped them all back and made my way home and in bed after kicking Boy out. That’s for making so much of noise the night before. Hehehe….

And that’s how my Sunday started from Friday onwards. As I’m writing this, I’m still a bit lazy but at the same time I’m wondering if I’m hungry or not. My stomach has grown big again thanks for all the food that I’ve been taking for the last couple of days, weeks…. I wacked 6 pieces of sweet and spicy wings with home food as my lunch and that was like at 430 something. Maybe I’ll grab some Ramli Burger near my place. Yummy…. Special with cheese.

Ok done… I’m getting the burger.

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Its Christmas week and I haven’t even done shopping for myself. Hey…wait a minute. I never did. Hehehe… Only on leave from Friday onwards right until the New Year. Nothing much or yet planned for Christmas and probably will just plan 1 or 2 and see if they happen otherwise a quiet one at home with the occupants of the day.

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The thought of burger is killing me.

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I can feel a sense of calmness growing better within me. Another evolution…

Another 11 days for 2010… what plans do you’ll have? Resolutions? Missions and objectives? Maybe I'll write on some of the things that I hope I could achieve in 2010.

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Better go now for my burger. That thought has clearly messed up my concentration. FOOD FOOD FOOD….


Hope for a good week for all.

Last Issue....

It’s been quite a challenging couple of days for me. So many things running in my head and although I’m in control of those miserable things in my head, I still need to act decisively on some of it or all of it before it get’s control over me. My mind is tangled up with 1001 thoughts.

I even almost lost myself during the sales meeting on Tuesday. Thankfully I still managed to control my emotions and refrained myself from saying anything stupid that I know I will regret later on. I’ve been through worse meetings than this but suddenly all the things that was uttered, was as sharp as a sword and I find myself with a weak armor and feeling very edgy. The time I left the room all it would have taken was a simple nudge from anyone I dislike for me to switch on my berserk mode and go on a war path.

Calmed down – just angry with myself rather than to anyone or anything else. Reflect on your own self you must, according to master Yoda. I am responsible for my own acts. After all, although the last couple of days I’ve been hating the word ‘such is life’ but I know that it’s about making decisions for yourself and moving on.

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I remember this time last year I got the job offer from the publishing house in Singapore. As blurry and unreasonable my reasons were that time, I didn’t take up the offer, as now it has become obvious that those reasons weren’t good enough at all. Slight regret but I think if I did leave then I wouldn’t have endured this 1 year here. Even though this year has brought me a bit of pain, problems and emotional issues but the good times that I had, experiences that I’ve gained, surpass it anytime. I found some real good friends this year.

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The urge to do something new, something more challenging, seeing new places is growing stronger every day. But I still find myself being held up – by my responsibility to my family. They are very much alright even without me interfering with anything but still I’m the man of the house. Wow, sounds like a powerful position, hehehehe…. Opss…am I becoming power crazy. Yeah right. Anyway…..

I’m not getting any younger as well even though I’m only 27 (this year). My will and spirit is still strong but lazy and I know if this goes on, just like all the years before this, eventually I will grow old, valor dissipated and only thing I’d be saying is ‘I should have’ and surrounded my regrets. I don’t want to live to that. I want to grow old and wise and be able to say that I have been there, seen that, done that, felt that….

Premo was right – you got to go through it all. Our parents did during their time, he did during his and although there’s lot more for him but at least he’s found his path.
I should as well because there’s nothing much one can gain by sitting down and just thinking about the world outside his office cubicle, fixed on a daily routine.

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Long weekend is here again. Club opening tomorrow night, lunch at Sind’s place and Premo’s son’s birthday bash in the evening. Still remember going to his place just a year ago when his son was born. Too bad that time I was sick as hell and was just recuperating. This time on form – time to pay back for the food that I missed. Hehehe….

Hat is going to Japan today and he’s going to ‘Meet the fockers’. Well hopefully don’t turn out like in the movie. He’s so anxious and scared. I’m happy for him as he’s going to see his girlfriend that he hasn’t seen for almost like 6 months. Clash of the cultures. Hahaha…

It’s the last IFN day for the year 2009. The whole team is hoping fingers crossed that it will finish early and I hope they would.

Last issue for Moo before she leaves the following week…… going to miss her.

The whole team has worked hard for IFN this year. All had their ups and downs and after 50 weeks of staying back late every Thursday...all would be relieved that its over, for now. Next year...stay back on Tuesdays instead. Good job to them all.

Until then….

~ Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do. Starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. We feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. We are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. It means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so." ~

Life's a bitch...

I couldn’t sleep at all last night. Went to settle some bills after MP and got back home. Everyone was already fast asleep and it was only 11. I was starving but since the food was already in the fridge I had to settle for bread instead and hit the bed after shower.

I woke up at about 3 something in the morning. I turned, and turned, changed my pillow position, twisted and turned again, in the end nothing. I was still unable to sleep. I looked at the time and it was almost 4. In normal times I’d be fast asleep this time and only waking up at 6 for the alarm. I’m a bit too early this morning. I turned on the light and thought I’ll read a book and maybe would fall asleep. Failed – no interest to read. Music was making me even more aware and awake. In the end I just turned off the light, sat on my bed, closed my eyes and enjoyed the quietness of the night with the only noise coming from my fan.

I just allowed by mind to wander off aimlessly, not focusing on anything but just letting it go.

Got out of bed around 5 and worked out in my room until around 6 and sat in front of my computer browsing crap after crap.

In that weird 3 hours of sleep I still had a weird dream – dream that I was camped at an open place nearby some jungle and they said that the place was haunted. I remember waking up suddenly in the dream feeling that someone was standing nearby us. No one was there and I got up and walked towards the jungle where they said was haunted and went in. I remember feeling scared but I wanted to go in still and went in and it was all dark and I shouted if anyone was there but nothing and remember walking out from there and it was dawn. Next I remember driving away in my car but using another road while the others took another. What a weird dream.

Confronting the ghost would mean confronting my fears but then I don’t think I’m that fearful of ghost. Well anyway…

For the first time, beers don’t taste good anymore and in fact I tasted the bitterness more than usual and MP didn’t look so appealing anymore. What’s becoming of me?

My name did get drawn last Friday at their lucky draw. In fact my name came out on the 2nd draw itself. Indie’s name got drawn too it seemed. Hahahaha…. So if I were there… I would have won myself a ticket to Europe. But I didn’t feel any regret or feel sad for that cause I had better time at Ciccio and no lucky draw could have made me any happier. The champagne was popped that night and the only thing left with me is a RM50 food voucher.

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I had an interesting conversation in the morning. Should a person get involved in a relationship if they are not truly 100% committed? Or is it wrong and unfair if the person is in a relationship but he or she is thinking about another person or their exes or someone they like?

Hmm… interesting. One would say that it’s unfair if you get involved with another person but having someone else in your mind. Unfair? Unfair that you’re not giving your all to the other? But you are giving your 100% in terms of commitment and trust and everything else but you can never just forget. It will always be in your head. You might have liked a person so much but unfortunately things just didn’t turn out the way you wanted it and had to move on but you never stopped liking the person. So what happens to you? Be alone and nurse your misery until you actually forget? It will never happen. But then if you happened to meet someone nice but you still got your old flame in your mind what would you do? Let the nice person to just go away because you feel it’s unfair? Or would you give yourself a chance to get to know this new person and maybe eventually start liking him or her as well?

Then how? What is fair and unfair in this world? Are you hurting that person? Your conscience won’t allow you or it’s just your brain that has been trained to tell that it’s wrong?

I’m not saying that the only way to move on is by getting into another relationship. I think that’s wrong unless you’re ready for that. There are various ways to go around that issue and it all depends merely on the individual itself. Some can forget and move on just like that and some take forever just to move on. I can bear witness to both instances.

I think at times when things don’t go the way you wanted it, then you just got to live with it and make the best out of it or you can look at the other side and take other options. Either way when emotions are involved, pain comes together and there’s no escape to it. We all had been through it.

Life’s a bad joke, sometimes and as it turns out, the joke is on us.

“In the book of life, the answers aren't in the back.”

GOOD TIME...

What a night it was last Friday. We all had fun. Good fun and maybe a bit too much of fun for me until I was totally wasted. Well – there weren’t any control for me this time although I wish I could at least try to remember all the conversations that I held, all the good things that happened and above all… the times when I was bad, hehehe. It was really good and paid with the over indulgence on Saturday. A last one for some of us and maybe many of us but it will stay in our memories. Food sucked, drinks were abundant – too much until I was even drinking mixing both white and red wine together. Yeah that’s bad. High enough that I actually drank vodka at 21 which is my dreaded drink. Hehehehe….

Took quite a lot of photos and looking back at all those photos – a sure smile on all our faces.

I really can’t believe that I forgot some of things that took place. Hahahaha…. I guess my unconscious mind was just doing things that has long kept inside of me. But luckily, just luckily not everything. Phew.

I got a cup from Sind who was my secret santa and a RM160 Parkson voucher from RM. Not bad. Guess my Christmas shopping for a shirt or t-shirt is covered. Hehehe…

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Sometimes just because of one small change in a routine or a plan, our future events are altered in a way which could be either good or bad or both. These events could be related to someone else or just yourself but in way is connected one way or another with the course of other events. All our lives are like a paralel line and sometimes we take a detour or changes which intervenes with another person’s line and bring changes to both the lines. At times some lines are going paralel together, tangled up; each carry the weight of the other. Sometimes a temporary cross over or even a permanent one. Which ever it is… each bring together differences and changes into their lives.

We people, influence each other’s life in a way; sometimes maybe not so much of influence but little bit and maybe other times, too much until it completely changes a person life. We all exert our influences in a certain way, a certain degree upon those around us.

You could be walking down the street and a guy looks at you and you give him a friendly smile and he remembers the smile and always stands at the same street looking out for you again to walk down the street, just to see the smile again. Well, stupid right, but it does happen. All the small things that we don't realize that it actually makes someone happy, or someone sad. Made someone to look at things from a different angle that he or she never knew. Made someone feel special. Made someone bad. Made someone appreciate the little things that he or she had. Made someone’s day or broke a person’s heart.

Why so philosophical?

Just something that I thought of after hearing about Ralph’s bag.

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Song of the day

Shadow Of The Day
Linkin Park

I close both locks below the window
I close both blinds and turn away
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way

And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you

Pink cards and flowers on your window
Your friends all plead for you to stay
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way

And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you


This song is about changes, a new beginning, how we live today that gives us our outlook on the world and causes how we feel the next, what we did today, how we thought about a certain situation, how we reacted, the choices we make in today that will make tomorrow what it becomes.

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Mistakes...

Crap, how many fuck-ups can you manage nowadays speaking about work wise?

I did two yesterday alone.

I sent an email to a potential contributor asking him to ‘exclusively’ take up a chapter on a topic that I was told he’s an expert in. So I drafted the beginning and copied the other half from a previous email and pasted it, changing little bit here and there especially the company name and the topic, name etc. Sent.

Then I got a reply from him which was quite prompt and before opening it I thought great, another topic down and 1000 more to go (joking). Unfortunately what I got was his email telling me that I got a wrong person and he certainly not working with company A. Crap. I missed to change the name company A to company B where he’s based now. I replied to him back saying that I got the right person but mistakenly mentioned company A. No reply.

Then the 2nd fuck-up. Similarly contacted one of old PR contacts to write a piece and she agreed and she mentioned the author’s name. My last reply was to thank her etc and ‘looking forward to get the piece from X’. I spelled his name wrongly and got another email to correct me and he was copied in it. Crap. Another apology email.

Last week I was speaking to my client over the phone and that was quite a lengthy chat about business, future plans, budgets, publications bla bla…. Quite a sales pitch I gave her and there were buying signals there so I was pushing a bit more than usual. Talking about what her competitors are doing and what they should be doing and how they can fit into our plans etc. Then I hung up promising to send the proposals etc. I realized that throughout the whole conversation I was referring her company as company Alpha while she’s actually from company Beta. Even better I was referring Beta as her competitors and what they should do to outdo them. I haven’t heard from her since and all my calls unanswered.
Crap.

I remember a year or two years ago I got an email from a client which both Ayatollah and I were managing. He was pissing me quite a bit. So that client emailed me with a request and I wanted to forward it to Ayatollah. I actually drafted the email with almost all the vulgar words that are familiar to me and Ayatollah would understand including his own collections of profanity. Then I re –read the email and it sounded too much, too crude and violent and crazy. Deleted it and rewrote another one without the vulgarity but with some real sarcastic statements. Sent. Instead of forwarding I actually clicked on reply all and included Ayatollah but forgot to remove the CC’s.

I only realized it after I pressed sent and although I tried my best to stop the transmission which you could if you’re fast enough but somehow the connection that day – were superb. Crap.

I forwarded the email to Ayatollah and told him and luckily, seriously luckily I didn’t send the earlier one which I drafted. I would have just drafted my resignation letter and packed my bag and left before lunch. Nothing much happen after that – client was alright. Phew.

Last year in RM there was a fuck up by someone else. Hehehe… that was quite funny. Calling a client a bitch or something and that really went out of hand and Premo had to buy flowers, wines etc… God knows what else he did for her. Hehehe.

Best thing to say during these times during a sales meeting.

Boss: So what have you been doing the last few days?
Worker: Hmm… Hmm… uhh… well I’ve been calling my clients.
Boss: For? (which course or product you’re selling etc)
Worker: well. To wish them happy holidays….

Hahahahahahahaha…… OMG!!! That is the most hilarious thing I heard this week. Seriously by a mile apart!!! Thankfully the boss took it well.
*this is a real life story.
Hehehe…

If I said that to Ayatollah… he would have turned into a tall, thin red dragon and eaten my head off. ‘Err…calling my clients to wish them Merry Christmas’. ‘WHAT!!! WTF!!! YOU THINK IM PAYING YOU….’ I’ll never see the end of this. Ever.

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I was extremely drained out yesterday. I could literally feel my life draining out. Hahaha…OK too much.
I just drove back and everyone was asleep already. Took my bath and hit the bed. It took less than a minute to doze off and only waking up at 6 to shut the alarm and the next thing I knew I was waking up at 8:33. Fuck…. I slept through the other alarm. Fuck Fuck…. I quickly got out and got ready. If my mum were around by now she should have been banging my door at 8 followed by a shout at 8:15 then banging and shouting at 8:30. 8:45 she’ll be asking if I bought the company or I left the company or am I doing anything stupid like selling drugs. By 9 she would have realized that I’m not going to work and leave me in peace.

Speaking of which….last week one of my black shirt tore near the arm and at the bottom. Even I didn’t realize it until Moo saw it. Shite… I just went through the day without being bothered about it and got back and completely forgotten to make a big fuss about it. Oh yeah – I would normally just blame it on the washing machine saying that it has destroyed many of my stuff, or my sister who ironed it or maybe jimmy for biting it and how expensive the shirt is and how my mum stopped buying any shirt or t-shirts for me since I was 12 and even after that when she buys she will buy the kiki lala shirt or something and since I’m already a macho man that age and brand conscious and should be wearing polo etc which is of course way out of my yearly budget. I think I do it for sympathy although after that I’ll just go away while they totally ignore me and then I’ll ask them to iron my other shirt. A cycle… or maybe I’m just lack of attention and need to be pampered? Or maybe I’m jealous of Tony and Annie. Ok done. I’m a real drama king.

Anyway..where was I. Oh yeah the torn shirt. So she came to me on Saturday and worrying she asked.. ’Charlie, were you involved in a fight or something?’ “Why is your shirt torn?” “What are you doing?”

I just burst out laughing and told her that I wanted to ask her myself but forgot. She quickly said she has no idea how it tore and she’s innocent. Yeah…. I just went like…hmm..

I think for 2010 – I’m going to buy a couple of new shirts and t-shirts. I need to change them. Maybe a change in fashion? Hip hop with bling blings and cap or snow cap? Hmm….

Something to think about…

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I was buying cigarette and my usual Mee Lo at the convenient shop below and he asked if I had 20 cents. I didn’t have any and he sighed and said he don’t have much change. Then I asked him if he wants coins worth up to 300? He smiled and said YES PLEASE!! So I’m going to break my Johnny Walker – keep walking savings cylinder box. I think there’s like RM300 worth of coins there.
But the lazy part is to count them all.

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Bosses are back. Enough said.

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Party tonight. Presents are wrapped thanks to Sind and Subs. Stomach still not 100% on form, so I’ve got to go slow with it. No unnecessary, unknown food to go in. Feel damn dry especially my hands and even applying the lotion constantly is not doing much good. Crap.

Err…. Got a stare from Ayatollah that sent shivers up my ass…stopped it right before it reaches my spine. Hehehe…

Ok got to go and I’m hungry.

Lack of S.....

I only had about 3 hours of sleep last night but still standing.

Had a quickie at MP and followed AndrewMP to Maxis to check out the Iphone packages available. Trying to see if there’s any catch to it – nothing that I know of for now. Guess he’ll be having a new toy in 2010. Somehow I’m not so much fascinated with it although I agree that it does have a lot of interesting features and some are awesome. I guess I just lost my ‘love’ for gadgets ever since my own Dopod HTC incident. Hehehe…. Damn…

I played pool worse than a newbie last night. Felt quite funny and was having that feeling since afternoon. Some kind of turbulence in the stomach. I gave up and left back home. So it was almost like midnight and I was busy watching my DVD when my sister came up to me and asked me to send my mum to the airport. Her flight was at 6.20 am. So after some ‘peaceful negotiation’ I agreed under some conditions. I slept at 1 and woke up at 3. Damn. Was feeling so sleepy and just couldn’t even muster my energy to get up. So there was a reason why my sister suggested that I send my mum – I saw her luggage and I went like ‘Gosh! Why such a big bag’ but only thought about it. Off it went to the back. Next stop was to house number 10 to pick up Mrs. Fernandez. When I saw her bag my eyes almost popped out. Her’s was almost like 1.5 bigger than my mum’s. I knew I had to get out and organize it. Somehow I managed to push it all the way inside my booth without any more space for the other luggage. Crap. Still found a way out and off we went.

Thank God I emptied my boot the day before.

Time was already 4.10 the time I left her place. I was already awake at this time and I knew I had to reach there fast, even more when I heard that they’re flying using AirAsia. Didn’t go that fast but there weren’t many cars on the road and reached LCCT just before 5 and waited outside while my sister went to send them off.

AirAsia stewardesses are HOT. They look so pretty and sexy. I mean I saw like 5 of them walking past my car and all 5 were like models. Damn…. Suddenly I thought about a conversation I had earlier this week about being a steward with Emirates. Hmmmm…… my dream was short lived as my sister came back. It’s 5.30 am and all the way back home.

So 2 weeks without my mum; no coffee in the morning, not sure about food or even roasted chicken for Christmas or lamb or even my traditional ‘heavy’ breakfast on Christmas day. Hmm….

I tested my car speed and it only reached 160 at 5 RPM. What!!! I could do 180 with even Fat inside my car and I was like already pressing my acceleration all the way to the floor. Sigh. Car needs some maintenance plus its almost due. I think by end of this month I reckon. Dropped back to 4 RPM and maintained speed all the way until reached McD and bought breakie at the drive thro’.

As soon as I got back home at about 6.30 I just crashed to my bed after shifting Boy who was sleeping on my comforter. Yeah he’s been using my bed more often and spending more time on it than me.

Woke up again at 7.30, snoozed my alarm like for the 100th time and crawled out of bed, got ready and got back to work.

Still turbulence in the stomach. Sigh…. No more food for me today until tomorrow.

Last day of freedom.

The Dynasty will be reunited again tomorrow and it’s our Christmas party tomorrow….

And I’m yawning and eyes watery and stomach pain and got work to do. Not a good combination any of those.

I think I’m going to catch couple of movies over the weekend. See how it goes…

Asked my sister why we didn’t put up our tree yet and she said that we’ll do it soon but might have to get a new one as the artificial one is not so happening any longer. She hinted that there’s lot of nice pine trees in Putrajaya… and I kept quiet. We always had real trees since small and only in the last couple of years we started using the artificial one. The last time I brought home a real tree, I had to cut down the whole tree which was like 2 or 3 storeys high at an abandoned banglo in Titiwangsa, in the afternoon in heavy rain, with Fat. Initially we managed to cut the lower branches but they were…imperfect. So in the end we decided to bring down the whole tree because the best part of the tree is obviously right at the top. Took us couple of hours to do that and managed to bring home a 7 – 8 feet tree back – in a motorbike.

But that was before. There’s a lot of pine trees around especially in Titiwangsa but any attempt would result in me A)being shot B)Arrested for trespassing and stealing C)both A & B
Any attempt to do so in Putrajaya would be a suicide mission. It’s like going to Istana Negara and cutting down a tree there.

Well if any of you….suddenly…one of these days…happen to have a pine tree in your lawn or behind or side of your house or even your neighbors…. Waking up that fine morning and finding it missing… please don’t suspect me because I certainly not planning to that.

Yet.

Slow and steady rush ..

I woke this morning at 6 am!!! And then a snooze at 615 followed by 630 then 645 until my first sister called me in the phone and asked me to get up and take my bath. I wanted to sleep more, at least for another hour or so and as I was bathing while eyes still closed I was wondering how I’m going to go through this day. Then I realized, I’m Charles, and all I need is a bit of a nudge or a shift in gear and like a nuclear powered submarine, I’d be up and running in full force. True enough. Barely few minutes later I was fully operational.

In my head I was drafting the easiest way to get to Bukit Nanas without getting stuck in any major jam. That place is not my playground. Ended up taking Jalan Kuching which was alright – all I had to do was to know which lane to stick to and the rest was smooth sailing and luckily I know my way around that area because they closed the road in front of Dataran. Used the back way from Bukit Nanas and ended up at my usual car park at 830 without having any problem to find any available slots. Not bad. Maybe I should make it a point to get up and leave by 8. Saying is one thing….doing is another though.

Uncle Carl was telling me how hard it is to get the epilepsy medicine and the cost of it. Well that’s something that I can’t help. Helpless…..Sigh. But I guess John and James could help him out there… I hope and hope the CD’s sell too.

Dreamt about Fish last night that he was going through my commission list and commented that it was a insignificant amount! I only remember lashing out to him for going through my stuff. Weird. Well I’ve decided that I’m no longer going to stick with any of his plans or outings or anything to do with him. Well if I’m not good enough for him then why I should bother even hanging out with him…after all we all are loser to him. Even when he called for a ‘by invite only’ Christmas party which is today I politely declined and said that I had other plans to meet some friends later in the evening, which of course I lied. I came to conclusion that it’s ok to say lies and not to be straight like an arrow all the time, as long it doesn’t involve anyone else. He said it’s a good networking opportunity but it’s alright and even Premo going with him wouldn’t change my mind.

I watched 13th Warrior last night – thanks to Hat who downloaded the movie for me. Quite an old movie but I wanted to watch it after Fat mentioned it to me sometime ago.

So mum will be leaving tomorrow and she was busy packing the time I got back home after badminton. But she wasn’t feeling well at the same time…hmm…

I give Tony another 2 months before he can really walk. He’s already crawling his way all over the hall and slowly taking steps when we hold his hand and walk him around. He’s very excited! They both are learning quite fast. Anne is already saying some fluent words and understands commands. She was even singing ‘shame shame’ when I was looking at her while my sister was changing her. Hahaha….. she’s not afraid with animals as well but I think that runs in the blood. Although Jimmy did startle her over the weekend when we unleashed him and suddenly he barged inside and almost jumped on her. Luckily I was standing beside her. He’s still too big for her and too excited. One hell of an excited and friendly dog… No need to say anything about boy though – he’s like the king himself.

I need to get another haircut. It’s becoming a bit messy and too much to care about. Maybe I’ll cut it all short to make into a shape – shape of my head and keep a frenchie. Hmm….

I was thinking if I should get something extra as a present for the secret santa thingy then realized that I was just kicking myself. Enough of the good boy and nice boy image which is not going to lead me anywhere or do me any good. I don’t think the person deserved anything better from me so in the end I just completely forgot about it. Now I’m thinking if I should wrap it in a big big box or just around it. Hmmmm….

The Christmas party menu was emailed to each and every one of us this morning and at first glance I went like ‘what!!!! And we’re paying RM140 for this crap’. Wow… I don’t know what to say. One thing I know – I just want to have a good time with the whole gang and it’s probably the last party for some of us, so just enjoy it and let it be in my memory. Can just ignore the ones that we don’t like…gosh that’s quite a long list… I hope all will be happy and enjoy themselves, regardless what happens...

I got to step up on some of the things that have been on my head and 2010 is not far off… All lot of restructuring to do…

That reminds me of the resolutions that I did earlier this year. Can’t really remember all but I know I kept it somewhere in my email. I’ve got to check on it and see if I’ve been successful or ‘just another resolution that I made’.

…was checking and looks like it didn’t really happen. I only had 2 and didn’t keep up to both. Sigh.

What’s the point of making one if you don’t keep them yeah? Re-evaluate the whole thing and I see the problem.

Me.

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Quote:

A dog doesn’t care if you’re rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb. Give him your heart and he’ll give you his. How many people can you say that about? How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special? How many people can make you feel extraordinary?”

Errr....

Damn. Maybe I’m just paranoid or making a big fuss out of something small but still…. Ah… who cares anyway? Let me ramble and rant as I wish right.

The first time I started playing badminton with Prem and his dudes, I saw his friend, RF. I knew who he was because I’ve seen him. He’s my ex’s cousin. Ok..cool cool. Don’t say a thing and just relax. Why bother right. So I knew exactly who he was but I don’t think he did. Then the forwarded emails started to come in. Holy shit… forwarded emails to each and every one of his cousins and uncles. WTF!! And my name appears right on the ‘To’ line. Already I’m the most hated figure in the Fernando’s family and now I’m copied in their emails.

See. I’m such a drama king. Certainly has nothing to do with me and I’m very sure no one would actually bother or even notice. Well…like I said. Just felt like saying something unrelated.

At last…managed to buy the Christmas present – for the secret santa thing. Too bad she was a bad girl this year otherwise I would have taken the effort and time to get something meaningful. Well case closed. Simple and practical. I wish I got someone else as secret santa :( sigh.

Thankfully there weren’t many items that were appealing to me yesterday. Otherwise I would have wasted more money buying stuff that I wouldn’t need.

Thinking what I should get for my sisters…. Maybe give angpau? Save the hassle of going shopping. Aiyo…Even the Christmas tree is not there where to place the presents? Hahahaha…..

Weirdly, I was feeling quite drained up last night. It was like I was out of energy and strained both physically and emotionally. The time I reached home it was just nice for me to take my bath and hit the bed and it started to rain, just like I wished for it. But it still took me sometime before I actually dozed off and woke up when my alarm rang in the same position. Guess I didn’t move much. I know I snore when I’m tired but I hardly move around much.

Oh yeah had a XXX dream over the weekend. Hehehehe….. Maybe was thinking too much about it.

Even I’m getting bored writing my post. WTF?

Must see movies this month – Storm Warriors, Couples Retreat and Christmas Carol. I think there’s a few more nice ones coming up soon.

Ok even I can’t take this. I better stop this nonsense.

Chow

Tired...

Another 3 more weeks before Christmas!!! Why am I excited? Don’t know actually. Another 4 weeks and it will be 2010. Damn. A year just zoomed past. What a year.

I guess Christmas for me this year will quiet and alone :( hahaha….such as sadist!

I was up by 9 am on Saturday and was sitting in the living room staring blank into thin air. Got no idea why am I up early on a freaking Saturday. Damn! Next thing I knew I was sitting in front of my pc sipping my coffee without even brushing my teeth. Talk about being lazy man. Then my mum came up to me and said that she’s going to India next week, oh this week. I went like ‘uh…for what’… then a 5 minutes story. Yawn..hehehe…. So my mum is going off to India and probably be back a day before Christmas or after. Didn’t hear that part well…. I just nodded for the long list of things that I’m supposed to do and don’ts. Early morning instruction….sigh. Heard my other sister will probably be going to Singapore and knowing my 2nd she’d probably be staying overnight at her best friend’s house since she just got back from Australia. So I guess Christmas will be at Mrs. Fernandez house for them.

No cookies being made and even the tree is not up yet. Wait..do we have a tree? Hehehehe…..

This year I must attend midnight mass – last year I missed it for Premo’s party and ended being sick for almost a week. Damn! So not related :D
Last year’s was quite great….

8 days of leave remaining and I haven’t taken it yet. Thinking of selling half and taking the other half…. Don’t really have any plans to travel so I’ll be based locally, at home. Well let’s see how that goes. Still got time for that…

So our annual Christmas party on Friday at a screwed up joint near Changkat. Whatever it is I just want to have good time and forget all the rest. It’s probably the last party for some of us so make a good time out of it and remember it. Unfortunately the last lucky draw at MP will be held on the same day but we are miles apart. See how it goes for that. Some times some things are out of our hands.

Had quite a good time at MP on Friday, minus the fish itself. Finished up almost all available coupons and left with just a RM50 voucher. Cool :P
Only slack part was the bill which I should have controlled but thanks to Fish I couldn’t even understand what was on it. Well probably could be because of the beers.. hehehe…

Helped Sind to move some small furniture on Saturday since she’s moving in to Tamarind which is quite nearby to my place. I love the place. When they first built those condo’s I always wanted to get a unit there. Beautiful!!! Looking at her unit…makes me to have the ‘baby craving’ feeling that girls normally will have. Craving to have a place of my own which I think is just around the corner. Well problem is I’ll need to get a place for me and a place for my parent/sisters. Sigh… how nice I strike lottery or what. Yeah right. Dream on. My aura is only around MP, not the number shop.

Went over to church to pass the CDs to UncleC right before mass ended but he wasn’t there. Ended up meeting my ex after church which caught me in surprise. I was hanging on the phone when suddenly she walked up to me and said hi. Well there’s nothing wrong but just caught me off guard. Well, old story and thankfully I have moved on.

Met up with Prem late because I had to babysit the kids while the others went to the supermarket. Waited and waited… Tony is crawling around the house now and the whole weekend I was teaching him to walk by holding his hands. Clever boy.. Less crying and much cheerful. Ended up at a Chinese shop in Bangsar then at Dintis while making fun of 2 Liverpool supporters. Hehehe….pretending to be supporting Liverpool as well. We both had quite a lot to drink that night!

Woke up early again on Sunday. This time I was like WTF!!!! Spend the whole day quietly at home watching movie and checking my car engine. Need to service it very soon.

Met Premo again at Jalan Ipoh then met up with Indie and Barnes at Canteena and played pool until late. I was a bit in a naughty mood yesterday…. And that was just a bit. Crap….

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I watched 500 days of summer last week and I got to admit it was quite a movie. It’s quite good and meaningful. Frankly it did touch some personal and intimate aspects in me and maybe that’s why I felt the movie was good. I does teach a couple of things that you already knew but just re-affirming it.

I love this quote:

“I woke up one morning and I just knew that I was never sure of with you.”
&
“You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me.”

Another good movie that I saw was the curious case of Benjamin button. Still a bit more left though. It’s quite dragging but worthwhile if you listen to it. Some of the things that was said in the movie was great…

The quotes that I like:

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.”

And the one that means quite something to me:

“You can be mad as a mad dog at the way things went; you can swear and curse the fates – but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.“
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“We’re meant to lose the people we love. How else are we supposed to know how important they are?”

It was clear sky last night even though it was raining much earlier. You can basically see the Star of David and if I had a telescope probably even the further ones. The semi moon was a beautiful sight…spent quite some time just staring into blank space and let the mind wander away.

Was feeling a bit tired inside.

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I got to admit that although you can be so strong inside; adamant and try your best to be true to your principles, beliefs and not allow your emotions to cloud your judgments… there are times where you’d fail.

That is the time when at the end of the night, you would feel stupid, stupider and perhaps the stupidest person on earth.

You keep reminding your self that ‘this is it, this is how it’s supposed to be, and nothing, there’s nothing that you can do to change what is out of our hands’. But wait…but then you could try to influence ‘it’ although it’s out of your control. Damn… always two minds. Of course…there are multiple choices, various options available… no no…. you cannot exert influence on something that you never did have.

WTF am I talking…. All the ramblings inside my head, all the crap… I think has taken its toll.

Am I heartless? Hmm… maybe I was, maybe I am, and maybe I am going to be. So what? Coming from another heartless person…hmm but then people say “it takes one to know one”. Who are the people anyway? The same people who tells one thing and do another or fails to tell us the bad side of the coin? OMG…why am I blaming people now.. hahahaha….

Well. It doesn't matter anymore.

Anyway...

Well it was always a shadow that I was chasing and it can’t give what I’m seeking.

What to do? What can I do?

Hmm..

"Begin, be bold and venture to be wise."

How to Know if a Guy Likes You

There's no way to know for sure if a guy likes you, unless you ask him (and even then he could get shy and say no!); here are some tips to help you determine if he likes you.

1. Examine his body language. If he likes you, you may see that he rarely turns his back to you, often leans towards you, and also looks at you a lot. If he slouches his shoulders when near you, he's romantic and cares about what you have to say. If he points his shoulders and pelvis towards you while sitting, he is definitely feeling something for you.

2. Notice his eye contact. If he likes you, he may either look away quickly if he is shy, or he'll try to catch your eye and hold it or make faces. This can be uncomfortable if you don't like him. If you feel like you have held eye contact just a fraction of a second longer than you would with anyone else, or if he looks away quickly, then there is something there. When he's around you and he says/does something funny and everyone around laughs, his eyes will flicker towards you for a second to see if you laughed, too.

* His pupils may dilate if he likes you, but this is quite hard to pick up on, and you might come across as acting strangely by looking that closely into his eyes. If you're around him for a long time, it could be easier to pick up on gradually.

3. Listen to what he's saying. If he likes you, and he's nervous, he'll probably start talking about himself. Many times, guys feel the need to prove themselves- especially if you talk about another guy in his company.

4. Be aware of touching. He might put his hand on your arm when he laughs, and won't move his leg if it happens to touch yours, or he may hug you for small things - all are good signs of a guy liking you, unless he's a bit of a "playboy" who flirts with a lot of girls. See if he uses any of the tricks in How to Touch a Girl, and see if he uses them more with you than with anyone else.

5. Watch his actions around other girls and see if he treats you differently. Some guys flirt with other girls to get your attention. It gives them a chance to see your reaction, and helps them know if you really do like them or not. You can tell that they are trying to make you jealous if they find little times when they're flirting with the other girl to look at you. His eyes will flick over and look at you. Another sign is that when you leave, he stops flirting with the other girl. That will be a harder one to pick up on, but you can have a friend look for you or something like that. You have to be sneaky sometimes to find out if a guy likes you.

6. Watch for him showing interest in things you like and do. For example, if you like a certain genre of music that he likes as well, he may suggest bands or artists for you to listen to. Another example, if you play sports he may ask to play against you just to show off that he's good at something you both like and then also have a reason to give you compliments as well.

7. Check for signs of nervousness Nervous laughter, sweaty palms, deep breaths, fidgeting, looking away quickly when you notice if he is watching you are all good signs of an attraction towards you and that he is nervous about making an impression on someone he fancies.

8. Pay attention to his friends. If they know he's interested in you, they might tease him subtly when you're around, hint to you that he likes you, or even try to find out if you like him. Study their reactions to your presence - do they smile? Do they turn to him? Do they smirk in a way that suggests they know something that you don't?

9. Don't ignore him If he shows genuine interest in you, (i.e. smiles at you a lot in the hallway, work, etc., at least go out for a walk.)

10. Look to see if he imitates you If he mimics you, he probably likes you, such as, if you move to another table, he'll go with you.

11. Teasing If a guy teases you a lot, it might mean he likes you, but if he doesn't tease any other girl, he probably does like you.

12. Hitting A guy may hit you but it's just flirting he probably just wants to see your smile i have had a few guys that will hit me that like me. You may find it annoying if you're not into him, but otherwise if you hit back then that's a way then he can know that you like him back!

13. Compliments If you do your hair or makeup differently one day, and the guy notices, that's a very good sign that he likes you. Most guys won't notice, and if they do, they won't say anything unless they're into you. Anything like, "You look nice today," "I like that shirt," or even "Did you do your hair differently today? It looks nice," are all indicators that he could be interested in you. NOTE: If he's a good friend of yours, these won't necessarily be indicators of romantic interest. It could just be him being a good friend.

Today...

This is a site where people post their own stories about how their life sucked. It's called: http://www.fmylife.com/

For those in my office who can’t access it because it’s blocked….just google the site link and click on the cached option… you can only view the first saved page and I’m not going to tell in depth how to go deeper inside.., too technical and I don’t feel techie today :)

Best – view at home and maybe you can place your own posts on how your life sucked…. I think maybe I will :P

Some of the funny ones that I read – (note FML stands for err…f*** my life I think)

“Today, my girlfriend dumped me proclaiming she wanted someone more like her "Edward". I asked her who Edward was. She held up a copy her "Twilight" book. She was talking about a fictional vampire. FML”

“Today, this really attractive woman that I've known for years told me that when I can have sex with her standing up, she'll have sex with me. I'm confined to a wheelchair. FML”

“Today, I was having sex with my boyfriend. When he was about to orgasm, he screamed "Yes Brittany!" at the top of his lungs. My name's not Brittany. That's his sister. FML”

“Today, my husband dropped me off at work, ten minutes later I got a text saying" I just dropped the b*tch off I'll be there in a few baby, miss you". I asked him about it he said he "I dont know what youre talking about Megan". My name isnt Megan, not even close. FML”

“Today, my boss called me into his office to show me the web site of a potential business partner. When he began to type 'virginia' into google, it auto-completed his search with his recent search for 'virgin boy assholes'. I have to go on business trip with him tomorrow. I'm a young guy. FML”

Hahaha….really good ones are out there and funny when you come to think how screwed some people’s life can get. Hehehehe…

Maybe we all could come up with our very own…not necessary needs to be real life incident I guess :)

I’ll say….”Today, the girl in my office that I really like texted me saying that she likes me. I was in heaven and replied her back without even thinking. I got a reply “I’m sorry, it was meant to another Charles”. FML!!!


Some random stuff…

(a bit small to read so just click on it to enlarge it)

Diary of a sperm




Mars vs Venus
(this is quite a good joke, email)

I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart.

FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed.

Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me."

I said "WHAT??!! What was that?!"

So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?"

Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep.

The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to take so I told her we'd just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to compliment her new clothes, so I said lets get a pair for each outfit. We went onto the jewelry department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings. Let me tell you...she was so excited. She must have thought I was one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play tennis. I think I threw her for a loop when I said, "That's fine, honey." She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement. Smiling with excited anticipation she finally said, "I think this is all dear, let's go to the cashier."

I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, "No honey, I don't feel like it."

Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled "WHAT?"

I then said "honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman." And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me, I added, "Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?"

Apparently I'm not having sex tonight either.


Hahaha....that is totally hilarious!!! Just imagine how the girl would have felt...the fight...hahahaha.....i would have laughed myself to death if I did it, before I get killed..

10 Types of MEN You Need to Avoid

My previous post might have gotten me into hot water and not to sound unfair... let me make myself a great person by posting this as well :)

10. Men Who Are Always Pissing On Everything:

You know the type; for him nothing you do is good enough. You're too stupid, you're too fat, you're too mouthy. Well, the truth is the guy is an idiot trained from birth from his Neanderthal dad to piss all over you and everything you do. Avoid him like you would a pounding headache.

9. Men Who Are Damaged and Like It:

He's the guy that seems so sensitive and caring when you first meet. He's able to share with you the heartbreak of a broken relationship. You only find out after a few more encounters that he's still nursing a broken heart from the relationship he had with someone over ten years ago.

You slowly realize that he's not so much heartbroken but already committed to never caring about someone again. No matter how much time you spend together, you can never get through. Face it, you never will. The padding around his heart (and his skull) is so thick a neutron bomb won't pierce through it. So give up and get going. He's like a drippy faucet that slowly wears you down with false hope until you just want to smash it.

8. Men Who Love Sports Way Too Much:

There's a fine line between a great guy who loves sports and the raging maniac that loves sports way too much. How can you love sports TOO much? men would ask in befuddlement. For most women, it's obvious. A guy loves sport too much when they would rather watch a game than spend time with you.

I realize that ALL men fall into this category after several months of knowing you, but they will occasionally submit their whipped butts to taking you out or holding your purse as you shop, just to stop your fussing. But the sport fanatic won't care that the house is falling apart, that the baby is crying or that you haven't been out of the house in 4 months. All he'll want is a beer, a TV and "some peace". They are hard to tell apart from the normal healthy male but look out for the signs of obsession, or you'll be stuck watching every lame game the sports channel has to offer and feeding his burping buddies as your friends go out to dinner and to see the hottest new movie every weekend.

7. Men Who Thinks He Knows You:

These are the guys who think they are Freud. They spend all their time thinking and little time actually doing anything constructive. They have put a big label on you after one date and a night of conversation.

He's the guy who sits there watching you, with that stupid smug "I knew it" look on his hound dog face. He's clearly thinking that by putting a label on you, he has you all figured out and knows just what to do to fix you. He looks at you as if you were some broken piece of pottery he's going to glue back together.

What's sad is that he still can't figure out how to get someone to actually like him, so how is he going to fix you?

6. Men Who Are Prettier Than You:

It's one thing to date a sexy honey who looks like Brad Pitt, it's quite another story to be with someone who makes you feel like a manly cow just by standing next to him. You know the type, don't you? He's the "metro man" who spends more time fluffing his hair just so and takes more time doing it than you would spend painting a barn door.

Ladies, the secret to feeling pretty and feminine is to never date a man that's more beautiful than you and more delicate than you. So stop feeling like the turd that's drying out in the sun, and dump the whiny narcissist.

5. Men Who Think They Are Better Than You:

Have you met him? He's all about feeling superior. Nobody is good enough for him. He has a laser sharp tongue and can shred anything in sight until it lies in tatters in front of him.

This cold dead fish is unable to break into a smile for fear of splitting his face. He simply takes comfort in feeling that he is better than everybody else. After spending enough time with this guy, you will grow to despise the human race as he does, and crawl around feeling unworthy. Throw him away like you would a mold-filled potato.

4. Men Who Are Way Too Paranoid:

Something about these green-eyed goblins drives them to think you are cheating, even when you are with them.

They are the ones who seem so confident at first, flirting with you and attracted to your ability to flirt back. You date them and find they really don't like your clothes (too revealing), your car (too flashy), your friends (sluts), your family (too nosy), your job (too demanding), until you wake up one day to find the only thing you have left in your life is a miserable paranoid weird violent man who can't stand you out of his sight but can't stand the sight of you. He needs you to have nothing in your life but him, and you will have nothing unless you wake up and get out.

3. Men Who Refuse to Grow Up:

Well, my opinionated wife says that if you need to avoid all men who are children, there would be no men to date. Haha. Not funny.

I mean other than the normal guy who wants to have his ego stroked constantly and only do what he wants to do , there are those guys who really are babies. Selfish, spoiled, useless little boys who don't understand the concept of responsibility or self-respect.

These men are the ones who can't keep a job, who blame everyone else for their own stupidity and laziness, who are constantly outraged that the world is not giving them the respect they deserve. Clueless, they never realize that they are in fact, getting the respect they truly deserve. Hanging around with this type of loser is like having 10 screaming kids hanging on your legs, asking for ice cream when you can't pay for bread. Lock the doors, throw away his book of excuses and get a spine. Avoid him like you would a ...blood sucking leech.

2. Men Who Think Only With Their Sticks:

Well, as we well know, the streets to the courthouse are littered with broken marriages caused by men who think with their sticks and not their brains. They see something they want to poke and it does not matter if they have Halle Berry, Christy Brinkley or Pam Anderson, and their 2 kids, 3 dogs, and 4 fishes waiting at home. These men will do what they know they shouldn't do, go get the forbidden poke.

It does not matter that you are the hottest thing since freshly baked pie, a man like this is going to give you a few diseases and mess up publicly right when you are being voted "Happiest Couple" at the Lodge. You know he's the type to cheat as that's how you got him from his first wife. Know that you got a weasel in your arms, and throw him away before he puts you on the front pages of the daily newspaper for murder.

1. Men Who Are Cruel:

Simply put, there are certain men who are monsters hiding behind a thin veneer of charm and sanity.

There is nothing in the world as ugly or as damaging as a cruel man. For some reason, there are men out there who take only joy in seeing someone in pain (I don't mean like in a dull headache kind of pain - I mean like a big kick in the nuts pain).

People say that it's a power thing, but I know it's a sickness thing. It's sick to be you if you are with someone like him.

Don't be distracted by the sexy grin or the bulging pecs (or bulging other stuff) on the outside. Look at the inside. Fire is beautiful but it hurts when you get burned. Stay away from these creeps as if your life depended on it, as it surely does.

I hope that satisfies everyone...

10 Types of Women You Need to Avoid

Taken from here

10. The woman who is obsessed with getting married

You know the type. Desperate to be married...jerks are ok so long as they are marriage material.

She's the woman who had her whole life laid out like clockwork and with a timeline to give her the perfect life, only to find she hasn't met the perfect man and her biological clock is counting down in seconds.

You know she's going to suddenly discover as soon as she's married and gotten the two kids that you are a stinker...but now, you're going to have to deal with her the rest of your life.

She's so scary that any man in his right mind would run away....so run.

9. The woman who is always looking for a fight

You will be able to tell if your woman is this type if everything with her is a battle.

Anything that is said by anyone will be quickly taken out of context to become some sort of insult or some reason to wage war against the world.

She will make you an angry and bitter person too as there will be nothing but misery with her. Avoid her like you would a shrieking alarm.

8. The woman who needs to be handled with kid gloves

Everything in life hurts this type of woman. You feel like she should be wrapped up in bubble wrap so she doesn't break.

The tiniest criticism, the most innocent of comments will have her dripping in tears and big sad dog eyes.

Before you know it, you will be spending your whole life apologizing, saying sorry for all the things you did, didn't do and for the mere fact that you came into her life.

It's easier if you just get out of her life, as if she doesn't commit suicide because you leave her, she will sure threaten suicide because of something your did when you stayed. Avoid her like you would moldy bread.

7. The woman who really needs to cover up

I understand there are many women out there that still feel as young on the inside as they did when they were teenagers, but there does come a time when they need to stop dressing like they have the body of a lovely young lady.

To me, almost nothing is as gross as looking at the jiggling flesh of aging skin put out for display by a woman as if they are at the prime of youth (other than the behavior of leering men too old for them I am told by my wife
- guess which doll is inspired by her).

If you are involved with a woman who shows a bit too much, she has issues that are not going to get smaller with the decay of time so issue her a kiss off letter and vamoose.

6. The woman who is a constant drag

God, there a million of these types of women aren't there?

You know the type? Everything around them is a total drag. There is always something that could go wrong and she can never be happy, no matter what you do.

You could have won the lottery but with her worrying and kvetching, it will soon feel like it was the worst thing that ever happened to you.

This type of woman will slowly seep the will to live out of you, so stay away. Avoid her like you would an old used shoe.

5. The woman who can't shut up

I get attracted to women who can carry a conversation and has a good sense of humor. But there is a fine line between being a good talker and talking too good.

Avoid the wise-cracking woman who always has to make a comment about everything. If you don't watch out, you'll wake up one morning to find yourself next to your nightmare version of Rosie O'Donnell.

4. The woman who takes and takes and takes

I've known only a few women like this because I don't have the money
to attract more of them.

These are the women that are lovely on the outside, but really inside are a bunch of money hungry takers who are just with you for your wallet.

Your woman usually looks likes this when you first meet her and then you slowly realize it's all a cunning shell designed to lure you to her like a sirens' call.

Watch yourself as the types of ladies will just suck you and your wallet dry and leave you emasculated. Avoid them like you would avoid a mosquito
nest.

3. The woman who has nothing to say

There are woman who talk constantly and say nothing.

This type of women can go on and on about what her friend told her other friend about the shoes she bought on sale, but were really not on sale as her other friend found them cheaper at another store and on and on.

These are the women you just what to yell "Shut the F#### Up" on a daily basis but don't say anything to as they will then spend the next hour grilling you as to why you aren't happy today. ARRRRRRGH!!!

2. The woman who is one big freak show

This is the woman who will quickly drive you to your untimely death by having a stroke induced by frustration.

She can't make a decision about anything and doesn't know whether she is going forwards or backwards. Too wracked by anxiety about making the wrong decision, she drives you up the wall as you sit there patiently as she for the millionth time tries to figure out what to do, where to go, what to eat and what to wear.

1. The woman who is all out evil

These women are rare but the most scary and destructive to be involved with.

They usually come in very normal packages, but as the layers of normality peel off with familiarity, you one day discern that your woman is just plain evil.

Get away if it's not too late....but make sure she can't track you down, because she's the type of person to find you and send you to prison on some false charges to become Bubba's pet dog.

Post birthday review...

Quite a late update on my birthday which has passed and now I’m 27 years old and 4 days. Do I feel old? Nope – feel the same physically except for a more determined and stronger soul. Did a massive review on the last 27 years (ok – make it 5 or 6 years old because I can’t remember anything much before that. Ok. Make it 10). Conclusion …… so much more to do.

I spent the eve of my birthday at MP (duh!!) but it was alright. Hatem made his first in-house sale so AT decided to buy us all drinks but under the invitation of Hatem…. Haha….who would want to miss out a chance to celebrate..anything? So drinks on the house or on RM. Had to choose wisely where I should be hanging out considering that there were 2 groups – the management and the workers. What wisely - i knew exactly where I wanted to hang out. Thank God Subs, Indie and the rest were there…. Just hanged out with them and avoided Fish at all cost.

Fish was on full throttle. Once again we all are the loser. He’s the greatest man Earth has seen and there is nothing compared to him at all. He was part of one of the resolutions that I made on my birthday. I call it Resolution 27 although I doubt there’s 27 of it.

It’s so much fun without him. With him there’s despair, anger and stress. He’s gone and all becomes happy. Even Cleopet was complaining. Oh gosh. I could understand if 1 or 2 people don’t like a single person… but when 33 people don’t like the same single person…then there must be something seriously wrong. Of course…we are the LOSERS….we must be grateful that we have him.

So free flow of beers after beers. Then came the flaming courtesy of Ms. Subs and MP. Not enough…. Had a hagerboom. And another one because Fish said no one bought for him for his birthday. Well should have included a real bomb inside. Even AndrewMP played a birthday song and a small ice cream cake. Wow…..I think they thought that 26 was my birthday… after the 2 shot of hagerboom I was already running on my backup battery. AT challenged for pool and I got screwed with him and Indie and God know who else. Even worse I had to fork out the meal bill because conveniently someone told that I’ll pay for it. WHAT!!!! Cibai…. But it’s ok. We played the games and won loads of coupons and much more names inside. Indie is my fiercest rival now for the trip to Europe lucky draw. Wait… but I don’t see how we’re going to be there on the draw day considering our Xmas party would be held elsewhere. Thanks to FISH again.

Bakuteh and had to send Hatem and Cleopet back and the latter don’t even know where she’s staying. Hahaha….

Anyway….

Woke up late morning on Friday, lazed around and nothing much was happening. I wondered if my own family remembered. Too bad – mum and the kids were sick so I wasn’t really bothered about any celebration. Fact is it’s been sometime since we celebrated at home. Maybe I felt like a kid again. Yeah…who can blame. I didn’t really have a good one last year. Met Fat for breakfast and spent time at Mansion watching DVDs and left in the afternoon to meet the gang. Not bad….spent some time at Outback then moved on to Canteena and by the time we left everyone was already high. I met with another friend later that night after hitting home and refreshed myself.

I got another white wine from Indie…THANK YOU :)
And Ralphie bought for me a pants from TopMan….I love u man :P

Hahaha… not bad. So that was my birthday.

Saturday and Sunday went alright….

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Something out of the blue.

They say that “Even a lifetime is not enough to know a person completely" but we still live in an illusion that we create by ourselves that we know each and every thing about someone. At a moment we feel that we really know the real self of the person and suddenly out of the blue…. That person has different and unknown traits to you. Does that mean that we can never know a person completely and we just need to keep on living in the illusion?

Well you can always judge a person based on certain observation, trials and test but there are always some hidden parts/traits that you will never find out… unless the person reveals to you. But how if you found out unknowingly.. Would it change your whole perception or will you keep on pretending like you don’t know.

I could say that I do have a good judgment on people and I observe more tentatively than many others. Not bragging but I do. Sometimes I would find out hidden traits, secrets of a person unknowingly or maybe in purpose at times but I would not make a big deal out of it no matter how I feel. If the person is good then it’s good and no matter what secrets or traits they hide…its irrelevant because we all hide something, don't we.

Can’t judge a person by that I would say unless it’s Fish… because for that case study – nothing is a secret.

Anyway….

This morning I felt like I wanted to just fly away... maybe to Greece. Be on top of Mount Olympus or maybe at Crete? Why Greece? Don't know.

Note: Philosophy of stoicism: the wise man should be free from passion, unmoved by joy or grief, and submissive to natural law

a feeling that was never
even though it felt real
but it was never.

and you wish that it will come true?
by a sacrifice that is never enough?

where does it take you?
nothing but maybe.

finding yourself confined
within emotions that you wish never

long have you wasted
what you truly worth.

is it time?

its never the time unless you come to your senses.

make the choice.
take the next step
'cause she is never for you
why even bother?
when you're not even an option?

never look back.

on a feeling that was never.

It's my birthday tomorrow :)

Wah…. I got a red wine – Chilean wine from Deeps!!! Well I’m not really an oenophile to know which are the best ones out there but I sure do know how to drink one, both red and wine.

BIG THANK YOU TO DEEPS!!!

It’s birthday tomorrow!!

27th NOVEMBER 1982; 01:11 A.M. KL

That’s the date, time and place where I was born and was given the name; Charles Henry Philip (without the 1st or 2nd). Hahaha…. Name only grand, name of kings… Hahaha…. Almost everyone calls me Charlie although I have many others names that I’d like to be called as well, just to be a bit glamorous – Chase, Chas, Chuck, Ry, Nemesis & tempestsoul (for online and imaginary only). Other names that I have been called before: Chikidi, char kway teow, pilip, Charlie chaplin, charcibai, and of course every bad words out there at times (no offense taken but depending on who says it), hairy and many others that I can’t even remember.

Only person that I remember will call me Henry is Mrs. Annie who was my Sunday school teacher….Anyway….

So when I was born they said that I looked like my grandfather that I have never met (passed away before I was born). It took me 27 years to actually sit here in front of this pc and blog and still trying to actually figure out the purpose of my mere existence on earth. :P

I was thinking about all my past birthdays this morning. I can’t possibly remember all of it actually and in fact I’ve already forgotten like ¾ of it. On the other hand it’s a sign that 1)I’m starting to forget my old memories 2)age is catching up with me (as though I’m already late 40s)

I used to remember when I was small I used to wake up, and look around the house if there’s any presents and hope that my dad will come back home with a helicopter or car or any toy. I remember getting those couple of times and I also remember not getting anything at all because dad didn’t have money to spend and I’d be crying. Sad sad….

I was thinking which was the best presents that I had received, that left quite an impression/effect to me – I came to conclusion that it has to be the Microgenius game that my dad bought for me after UPSR. I had straights A’s and he bought for me that together for my birthday. It cost about RM499 which was quite a lot of money that time but the joy and ecstasy that came with it…priceless.

The other one that left quite an effect/impression that lasted until now was last year and wasn't even a present but it was the best….. … …

Best birthday party that I remember…my 21st birthday at Silver’s Bangsar. Enough said.

Worst birthday… I’m not sure if this is the worst but I still clearly remember it so I’d vote for it…

Went out to celebrate with my ex couple of years ago. I think we went for movies, makan etc and some how we ended up fighting like crazily bad (because of me actually – real ass that time). Bad enough until like going to break off kind of thingy…all on my birthday some more…continue fighting in the car park… throwing rings and other things I bought for her I think… full of drama… all in midvalley car park. Hehehehe…. Then she just dashed off in her car leaving me stranded at midvalley – she drove and I didn’t have a car yet that time I think (one of the reasons why I bought a car in the end I guess.. hehehe). I was working that night at Digi and had to line up in the long queue, grabbed a taxi to KL Sentral and another drama over the phone at the station….. hahahaha…. That was quite bad actually.

Actually we did fight like on almost all my birthdays… from small ones to the major ones above. It would have started so well, everything so nice, mushy and lovely… then suddenly bam….hehehe…its either her or me but me being the cause most of the time.

That was before.

Anyway….

What the worse present that I had received? Hmmm….. I don’t know actually. Can’t really remember if there were any…
Ahh…. I think it must the FIFA 97 game that my ex bought for me in Form 3. She wasn’t my ex that time but we (Dom and I) were just getting to know each other that time. Crazy….she gave me the gift which of course I was happy and said thank you etc but then…. Amidst my crazy interest in computers…. I didn’t own one that time. Hahahaha….
She thought I had one. Wasn’t the worse but just wasn’t practical.

What else?

I’m 27 in another 9 hours. 27 on 27 November 2009. After this I need to act like my age. This means no more joking around and going out with young punks. No more dressing up in jeans and T-shirts but in Polo shirt and pants with black shoes. Must speak in proper English with any lah’s and lor’s. Must give constructive and exceptional ideas at work and to friends. Must put the 5 year plans into action – house, land, money, marriage, family. No more late nights…..

Hahaha….yeah right!!!!!!!

27 is just another number although that number represents my age. When I was in the 12 or 13 I wanted to reach 20 fast. Then when I was like 21 I wanted to be like 27 or 28…. Now as its approaching 30…suddenly I’m realizing that after that…. Everything moves faster and goes down after sometime…. 27 and haven’t even reached my full peak yet. They say 27/28 is the time a man is at his best. Me…. Errrr…

So what’s the plan tomorrow? Nothing much and didn’t really like plan anything out. Just simply asked Premo, Ralph and Indie if they’ll be around and go for a drink and chill in the afternoon. It’s public holiday tomorrow and the others are going back to their home towns so the 3 are the only ones left. Quick ones in the afternoon and spend the rest at home.

Tony is growing rapidly now. He’s already crawling and its just matter of months before he actually takes his first step. When I saw him this morning after returning back from the university I saw him on the floor and quickly picked him up. He’s so cute and all the sudden I was engrossed with the daddy feeling and was eating him alive (no I mean tickling him, kissing him, and playing with him).

Car needs some internal cleaning… I think I’m going to do just that over the weekend.

It’s almost 5pm and the weather is so nice outside.

I’m looking forward for a quiet weekend but with Fat around…. I doubt it.

Out from the meeting. So much of anticipation, anxiety and in the end I came out of the room feeling empty.

Spend the whole time talking about their travels! What THE FUCKING FUCK!! Argggghhhh - now I'm angry! Yeah I know - it’s a good thing because I didn't get any screwing but then again... All they did was talk about when they should fly out, what they should bring, who to meet, what to do, the stupid event .... All I did was staring out at the window. Actually it’s quite a nice view :)

And I was getting annoyed because I had nothing to do with it. It's not like I'm angry because they are not taking me - seriously – go. No offense at all.. I have no intention at all to get on a plane to the Middle East. I rather spend my time here in the office looking out at KLCC and enjoy thenice weather out (surprisingly nice now)

Then we spoke about sales. Then he asked about a client who has generously passed on 28k to us previously for something that didn't happen - I actually told him couple of weeks ago what happened. And so I told him what the client said and the next thing I got - BOLLOCKS!! At that very fucking time I was shouting inside of me! WHAT - ITS MY CLIENT. I went in there! I spoke to them when they started! I made sure they won an award in the first year they started! I begged you to give them one last year! I flirted with them and bend my backs! I went to see them! I sold the first initial subs to them! ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All you could tell me was – I didn’t take care of them.

the all the sudden... I had to share them. One came and left. Then the other boss took over. Then another one now. When I asked to be given back what was mine - No... “You must share the client and you shouldn't concentrate on that product”. Wow....that is what you call client maintenance and fair. Hahaha….When they go and meet them; for sure they will tell them what they told me (hopefully) and then lets see how you take it. Oh yeah…but they are the bosses what and decisions can be made there and then.

Frankly I don’t really care actually. I’m more concerned about the project that I’m working on.

Anyway…………….that was the meeting only.

I think I need to go shopping for dvds. Maybe take a drive to Penang or Ipoh (since Ralph said they sell cheap there). I could go over the weekend actually. Alone or should I call Fat? Hmm… don’t know.

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Had a not so good badminton session yesterday. Premo was the same as well. Haha…I guess we both had things on our head. Sigh…

Same thing was stuck in my head in the morning and I didn’t like it at all.

Felt like killing all the drivers on road! Felt like taking a bazooka and blowing up the truck that was taking a minute to get into his gear. Felt like ramming into the pedestrian that stood on the road to cross but was basically standing right on my track and I have to take evasive maneuver which could endanger other drivers – but what the hell…they don’t give two shits and probably will blame me saying that I didn’t stop to let them cross. WTF!! They were crossing underneath the bridge (obviously lazy to walk up and down) and it’s a 3 lane road and everyone comes fast!! Argghh! Then bikers who wants to kill themselves and continuously comes right in front of my car. Actually they were two girls and the rider couldn’t balance her bike properly – then don’t ride a bike. Crazy or what!! Want to die aso don’t find my carlah… like they care.

A morning when everything I saw on the road was an annoyance and I just wanted to get out of the vehicle as fast as possible. Not offense to Chuck (since I cant call myself that so I decided to christen my car as Chuck – I love you man). Yes – my car is a he and not her. Yes – pun intended.

Hahaha…. You see…I am crazy.

Ok that’s enough. I better start to work.

"One of those days" has passed. Now it's the back to "one of those usual days but a different day".

Back from the hole and into the world again. Back to being crazily insane and inept.

Waiting patiently for the ever dreaded meeting with Ayatollah who had just unleashed his terror and rains of "fuck" to another group of people. Well even with the figures to back this week and last but I should know ever better - it is never enough.

He's back and I'm going in.

Heart beating fast... unusual. Can hear myself telling myself to calm down. It will pass.... just like every other week. Same shit, different week.

I've got to turn on my aggression button back on.

False alarm.... he's going around for his rounds with a grin in his face (but you know there's something beneath) and "you alright? How's everything going?"

Argh...charlie..stop being a sour puss - he meant well and after all he was missing from the office for some time. He got to check on his favorites...

Yeah I just want to get it over and done with.
Not something new for me to scare and be affected.

Holy crap...i'm pissing in my pants...yeah right!

She loves me...she loves me not...she loves me....she hates me...she fucking loves me... (that's what I'm doing while waiting - virtually plucking the petals of the imaginary flower)

1,2,3,4,5,6.....29....50...68... oh shit. Where was I again? Damn...1,2,3,4,5,6... (counting the levels on KLCC Tower from where I'm seated)

93 seconds....(that's the time taken for a cloud to move past my window panel)

Shit...got to go.

Its one of those days where I wish I could just crawl into a hole, into the darkness and shut down, stop thinking, just for awhile...

for the sake of it...

I was late again and made Deepa missed her movie. Sigh. I think I’ve lost my ability – to time myself perfectly and be there on time. Another part of me – taking advantages of time, just like before. Got to change that because I got to admit – I felt disappointed myself and no reasons to justify my failure to be on time regardless…

But we still had good time on Saturday albeit missing the movie. We had good lunch, good coffee (a bit too much) and even thought her to play pool although I don’t know if she’d enjoyed the game. Hahaha….

Rushed back in the evening to pick Premo for Fish’s birthday party at a restaurant in BSC. I thought I was late again – supposed to meet him at 715 but I was there 720 but it was alright because he made me to be there early. He was on the way back from Subang. Nice trick.

And a boring dinner but we weren’t lacking in alcohol. He gave us some kind of white wine which was so fucking strong – 55% of alcohol!! Even I felt one kind drinking that crap. Luckily that was placed away and out came BlackLabel which was more enjoyable. So it was him, Bren, his friend with his wife and another friend (whom I met before) with his wife and 2 other girls, Dave and his girl and Premo, me. I tell you…it was so boring that there were some awkward silent moments at times. Then came the fishing talk which bored us even and luckily the TV was on showing Liverpool drawing with ManC. Only the alcohol was keeping us company for both Premo and me. Dinner was served although I wouldn’t even consider it as one!!!! I saw a duck and saw Fish ate the drumstick and the breast (swear mouth was watering looking) and was waiting patiently for the duck….that never came. Seemed that they took out the skin and served it with some kind of biscuit like thingy and shredded duck. WTF!!! Sigh.

Try to make conversation with all those who came but there was only 5 people who were interacting. They others – staring blankly at the TV screen and laughing at every stupid jokes that came out.

Then the so call party was over and everyone chow!! What!!! No after party? Another sigh…. Drove to Fish’s house – he was already drunk the time and ended up at his place watching Zombieland – which he claimed was damn good and made for us some kind of drink – rum with coconut drink. WTF!!!!!!!!!! Triple sigh. Even better – he slept off and me and Premo were looking at each other thinking WTF. Woke him and he basically just threw us out – okie bye..slam. I was cursing Premo cause I didn’t want to go to his place as he was already high. Even better – car was parked at the guard house which I knew was a mistake but out hero Fish was confident that he can send us up when we’re done. Yeah right. Walked all the way and cursed our luck.

Pantai hillpark…. That brought memories to me.

Reached home and was thinking about someone….. aiihhh.. Hahahaha….

Woke up fresh on Sunday and sat in front of PC playing mafia wars – I missed it like 3 days in a row and I had to check and see if someone has destroyed all my multi billion dollar hotels. NONE. The kids all woke up early as well and was all hyperactive. Tony was running around in his roller and Anne was jumping and shouting and taking everything that she can grab from the table and playing with it. Tony has a new cage (I call it a cage). Hahaha…he’s moving too much and had to confine him.

Spend the whole morning and afternoon doing nothing at all except for surfing rubbish and trying new tricks online. Stuffed myself with heavy lunch and sat down watching Benjamin Button and Terminator (on tv) simultaneously. By 4 I knew I had to go out and do something.

Ended up at chiliz with Premo, Deeps and Karen.

At last I met one of Jerad’s girl. Fact is I didn’t know which one was it and was careful enough not to blurt any stupid statements and he was cautious just to say enough to make me understand. Oh – she’s the ex-colleague mate that he likes. She was kinda cute as well.

Anyway….better I don’t get involved with his love affairs.

Monday was just another Monday fueled with the usual blues.

Pool table at MP! Alas – brought my unused cue stick and left it there. So it was all night long game of pool with those who were there. I know I can play well in it but I’m just too eccentric and always want to try something spectacular which of course doesn’t happen. Well….winners stays from now on.

Ayatollah will be back tomorrow after a long absence from the office. 2 days in town and off again until our Xmas party on the 11th. This is what I heard.
Secret Santa program is back and I’m not sure what to get for the person I’m supposed to buy. Hmm…… ahh….Don’t want to think about it.

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Time is running short…. Sigh

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The unexpected tear drop
Without realization
Coming deep from within
Thy hidden emotions and raging flames
That hunger after
Yet a reason there is
Why it is kept inside
For it’s unrequited

5 Men You Need In Your Life

Taken from the glamour magazine again for the glamorous.

Question…you really need all these men? Hahaha… wonder why they didn’t post anything on “5 Women you need in your life”. I think I know why :P

Whether it is true? I don't know. Must ask the opposite sex.

I wonder if I fall in any of the category...I doubt it.

5 Men You Need In Your Life

Over 70% of women have a handful of dependable male friends - so for honest advice or even some innocent flirting, these are the guys you can count on...

THE CHARMER

Flirting = instant pick-me-up. "Plus it's proven to enhance your beauty - responding playfully softens your features, making you more attractive," says behavioural expert Judi James. "Charmer can't turn it on 24/7. Catch him on an off-day and the attraction might end," says psychologist Susan Quilliam.

MR BRUTALLY HONEST

"If women are too honest with each other, they end up in am alpha-female struggle," says James. Whereas a guy can tell us straight without us feeling so offended, plus: "He's your gateway to how men think, but more importantly, how men see you," says Quilliam.

THE GEEK

"Every girl needs IT help!" jokes James. This guy's linear outlook on life will help you adjust yours. Quilliam adds: "He may be socially awkward, but his technical competence will help you appreciate the world outside of people. He'll provide a great counterpoint to your social butterfly."

PURELY PLATONIC GUY

"Men can make great friends," says relationship psychologist Corinne Sweet. Quilliam agrees: "If there is no hidden agenda, then you can have a true friendship here where you can be completely authentic." Keep him on speed dial - he'll be the one to restore your faith in men after a break-up.

THE ADVENTURER

"He's a memory maker - even if you know him only for one summer," says Quilliam. And you'll never be bored: "This guy will push you out of your comfort zone and show you there's always time for wild exploits," says James. But, adds Sweet, "You'll never tie this guy down, he needs lots of space."

Snow...

There's been an email going around saying that it's going to snow in KL today at 7 pm. Oooooohh....frankly if that happens it would be a miracle. On the other hand it would also mean the the 2012 apocalyptic-endofmankind-doomsday-judgmentday-Kiamat-endofdays-wealldie theories is coming true. Or it could be that the global warming has gone to code red situation.

Malaysia (those who fail geography) is located at the equatorial line which means that we only 2 seasons throughout the 365 days (366 on a leap year) - hot and wet. It rains (water) practically every other days and other days its just hot and humid.

I've never seen natural snow in my life so if its snows at 7 pm later,.... I'm sure to run out and make snowballs and whack the shit out of anyone in front of me... then blame it on the snow fever.

It's 4pm - T minus 3 hours..... it's gloomy and cloudy outside and looks more like its going to pour at 6 rather than snow at 7.

Well...miracles do happen.

He Says, She Says: Flirting Moves That Work

You know there are so many interesting things that you can actually Google up and read in the Internet or even without searching stumbling upon some interesting stuff. Like me this morning – I was reading about the “Most wanted electronic gifts” and there was a link about “10 signs that shows he is lying” and on that page there “8 sex moves that you got to try” and so forth. Well its all for the information and not for some early morning “virtual-sex-fix-for-my-mind”. True…. :)

Anyway I came across this on the Glamour page – I assume it’s a magazine and I’m reading it online but couldn’t be bothered any further.

He Says, She Says: Flirting Moves That Work (and Ones That Never, Ever Will)

I thought I’ll add another perspective into the “he says, she says”…hmmm…let’s call me “D9 says” according to my practical life.

Flirting Move #1: The Wink

Erin says: The wink can be friendly or cutesy, but if you really want to stop him in his tracks, modify it. Try the slow wink. You close your eyelid and then open it slowly, and at the same time roll your shoulder forward and lift your chin, like you’re laughing in slow-motion. But just know that this move is lethal, and it sends a message loud and clear. You might as well give him your room key. I’ve never used it on a stranger.

Ryan says: The wink is good in theory but difficult in practice. I’m not very good at winking, so I’ve never pulled this move—and if I saw a girl do it, I’d assume she had a twitch.

D9 says: I can only wink via my right eyes and have no control over my left unless I shut both eyes and consider that as winking. I like to wink but only towards those I’m very close with and 99% are towards the girl only (which counts about 3 of them if I’m not mistaken). I rarely wink at guys. So I’ll never wink at a stranger and if anyone sees me doing it then it’s because my eyes are twitching; which happens a lot or there are dust in my eyes. If a girl winks at me I’ll turn to my back, sideways, up and down and at the same time check if my zip is halfway down. I’d never consider that she is winking at me. 2nd option she’s having a twitch. 3rd option – there’s no explanation and I should finish my drinks or whatever I’m doing fast.

Flirting Move #2: The Hair Flip

Erin says: I don’t do this because I’m from Southern California and already get the words ditz and Valley girl thrown at me quicker than I can say, “Like, omigod.” But I’ve been told that men get excited when you touch your hair.

Ryan says: So, like, you’re totally hitting on me, right? When I think “hair flip,” I think ditzy. Sorry.

D9 says: Hair flip…I think its just too drama like. Nah I wouldn’t even be taking this as a flirting move. More like – “she such a showoff”

Flirting Move #3: The Oral Fixation (sucking a lollipop, licking lips, etc.)

Erin says: Always, always do this at some point in the evening. Men imagine that lollipop or Popsicle is their favorite body part… Warning: Use this move sparingly—if you spend the whole night perfecting the move, it looks a little over-the-top.

Ryan says: Do girls actually do this? I mean, outside of porn movies? If so, I’ve been missing out big-time.

D9 says: I haven’t seen personally a stranger doing this outside their bedroom but I got to admit – it is a bit of a turn on. Got to agree with Erin about what Men’s imagination :)

Flirting Move #4: The Mirror (i.e., if you lean in, she leans in)

Erin says: I do this in job interviews, and a date is essentially a job interview. If a guy isn’t interested, he’ll sit back. So why should you sit forward and look all anxious and desperate? Sit back! But if he leans in to hang on your every word, by all means, lean in right back.

Ryan says: This is one of my favorite techniques—subtle but effective. It works well when paired with a slight smile and eye contact.

D9 says: Err…I’m very fixed towards my chair most of the time or while standing a fixed position as well. Not sure if the mirror act means anything flirtatious. I’d be uncomfortable if a stranger does it and I’ll try to keep the distance.

Flirting Move #5: The Whisper

Erin says: Teachers change their volume to get your attention. Often they get quieter instead of raising their voices. It works for them, and it can work for you. When you whisper to a man, he has visions of you whispering in the dark. In bed. Do it.

Ryan says: A while ago I was at a party with a date and she leaned over and whispered, “Let’s get out of here” in a really seductive voice. Just thinking about it still gives me shivers—in a good way.

D9 says: Ooooh…. I love this. The whispering act do sends a lot of mixed signals. I love it when someone whispers to me and I love doing it as well. While whispering you can smell her hair…in a good way :D

Flirting Move #6: The “Accidental” Touch

Erin says: I’ve been told this is disarming—in a good way. I’m quite the “unaware toucher,” but I always make sure the guy accidentally touches me first. That gives me some idea of his interest. Ninety-five percent of the time, if he likes me, he’ll touch my arm or leg, usually as a way to emphasize something he’s saying. Look for his first accidental touch about an hour into the date (any sooner and he’s probably not the most respectful guy).

Ryan says: I’m too shy to bust this out early in a relationship, but I love when women do it to me.

D9 says: Like I mentioned. I’m quite clumsy and accident prone especially when there are people close to me. That’s why I tend to avoid cramped up places. If a person accidentally touches me…I’ll just take it like an accident unless I like the person then I’d try to be close to her and maybe a bit of brushing of arms etc. That’s fine as long as the other person doesn’t feel uncomfortable.

Flirting Move #7: The Longer-Than-Normal Eye Gaze

Erin says: This works, but don’t stare him down. Hold the gaze for no more than five seconds, and make sure to smile. I’ve reeled ‘em in countless times this way. It’s like a green light. You’re silently expressing interest and inviting him or giving him permission to come over.

Ryan says: This is the easiest and most effective way to signal your interest from across the bar, and it is the only excuse a self-confident guy needs to make a move.

D9 says: Same like the wink. If I see someone gazing at me – first thought would be “Is there something wrong and a quick check on the fly or maybe something on my face”. Hahaha….. Even if the girl gazed and looks at me I still wouldn’t get up and make a move.

Flirting Move #8: The Smile

Erin says: Always smile. Most men love happy drama-free, toothsome women. It’s the best move you can make.

Ryan says: If a gaze followed by a smile doesn’t bring him over, trust me, he’s not interested.

D9 says: Ok. If what Ryan says is true then I’m in shite situation “No…I am interested. I’m just shy!!!”… Well if the girl smiles I’d smile back but very rare I’d smile to another person.

Flirting Move #9: The Footsie Play

Erin says: I have never done this. If you want to pull a Mrs. Robinson and seduce some young boy, go for it. But it’s pretty brazen and kind of cheesy. I’m never that forward. Also, some people have a foot fear—it’s the anti-foot fetish.

Ryan says: It’s very aggressive. If bad ’80s comedies are any guide, this move should be saved for large family dinners as a way to antagonize relatives, like when you’re sitting across from creepy Uncle Melvin.

D9 says: I think this is only applicable in advanced stages i.e. you and the girl are interested with each other. Footsie with strangers are dangerous :P. But I love footsie under the table while no one notices… gives me ideas. Still a no go for me with someone I don’t know.

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So there you have it… 9 flirtatious ways.

Frankly, 99% of the time, I wouldn’t be doing any of those especially with a stranger. Ok – there goes my chances of meeting a girl in pub, restaurant, library, bookshop, bus stop, shopping complex or in graduation or anywhere else for that matter. Maybe unknowingly I might do all those but without any planning in head. I’m just too reserved and shy plus I don't flirt except with my partner. Sigh…

If Ralph is reading surely I'm going to get some stick from him. Hahaha

So even though you know all the tricks in the book but if you don’t have the guts or balls to do it then what’s the use?

So girls beware and guys take note of those tricks. I’m planning to use to tonight… on myself :P

what if God was one of us..

Not a post but a song :)
One of those good songs from 90s


Joan Osbourne
If God Was One of Us


If God had a name, what would it be
And would you call it to his face
If you were faced with him in all his glory
What would you ask if you had just one question

And yeah yeah God is great yeah yeah God is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home

If God had a face what would it look like
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like heaven and in jesus and the saints and all the prophets

And yeah yeah god is great yeah yeah god is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
He's trying to make his way home
Back up to heaven all alone
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in rome

And yeah yeah God is great yeah yeah God is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if god was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
Just trying to make his way home
Like a holy rolling stone
Back up to heaven all alone
Just trying to make his way home
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in rome

And now I hold a BSC.

And that was the end of the graduation.

It went very well.

What I didn’t do:

Fall asleep on the chair
Fall flat on my face while walking up the stage
Wave at the camera while doing the V-sign
Step on people’s robe or shoe – the one in front of me. I have a tendency of doing that (I’m quite clumsy actually although I seem like a well balanced person – not my size)
Fart and pretend like I’m having flu and can’t smell anything – but I think the guy seated beside me did let go (because he was like adjusting the way he is seating, moving his ass around…u knowla)
Make loud noises from my stomach that even wake up the sleeping dean on stage (this I can’t control but stomach did make a bit of noise but not noticeable – phew)
Mimic the VC or Dean when they are giving speech
Try to be funny with the ones beside me
Mumble under my breath
Throw tantrums and not wanting to wear the boxy hat
Go up to the pretty girl from Sabah or Sarawak and congratulate her…sigh

What I did:

Went on time
Behaved like a good boy
Stood beside the fan at the waiting area and when the guys who were supposed to stand there came up to my and asked if I’m at the right lane I told them yeah and they are supposed to be the other side. Got a stare from them when we all eventually went back to our original lanes. I smiled at them like an innocent puppy.
Posed with the contingents from Sarawak when they were taking photos (where we were seated). Actually they asked me to pose.
Did strike up a conversation with my neighbor who was telling me how inconvenient is it for them to travel all the way to KL to graduate. They when she asked where I’m from I whispered KL and got a funny smile from her. I think she would have cursed me if she knew I stayed like 10 minutes away.
Did throw tantrum not wanting to hold the teddy bear or flower but did hold them in the end.
Started texting after it was my turn. I think I was annoying the guy (from Sabah) cause he kept looking at me and me pretending like I can’t see him.
Winked at a girl when she was walking up the stairs after receiving her cert (I was seating on the 2nd chair, 2nd row from the front)
Smiled

Only my mum and 3rd sister came for it while my 1st stayed at home with the kids. My mum came with a posy and my sister with a teddy bear. Question that was asked to me: Which one you want to hold? None. Took photos here and there (some were blurry….far…. sister is a bad photographer. Hahaha). I was starving and was supposed to head to John’s house for lunch – invited by Mrs. Fernandez. But that had to wait…. 2nd sister went off to the Uni campus to photo shoot with her friends.

I was sitting in the car, in the car park, was having my ciggie and was trying to feel like a graduate. How does it feel? Hmmm…. a bit free, relieved, like now you’re part of a high society…. What’s my next direction I was asking myself?

Anyway….

I washed my car after…let me think; a month or weeks? Hmm… forgot. Anyway…so I washed my car, I mean I sent it for a car wash and it looked clean and bright and beautiful again… only for 10 minutes because the time I got it parked in front of my house it started to rain. Duh!! This morning it was showered by bird shit. Crap.

And so we all went for lunch and since everyone was at home, for once (mainly me missing), we decided to settle the photo shoot session as well. I didn’t like the shots…looked like crap :(
There was a cute little girl in the shop, so freaking cute and I couldn’t stop looking at her. Hahaha…no I’m not pedophilia but she was just cute. She sat there in her uniform and just looked at us while eating some junk food. She reminded me of someone; a recollection of an old photo I saw some time ago. It was all good until she smiled. Hahahahaha….. Her front two teeth were missing and she looked so funny but still cute. I couldn’t stop smiling to myself.

Had a small ‘graduation dinner’ at Chilliz with the gang and that went very well. We all ate, smoked and drank and laughed our ass. Good time I did have. Hope the rest had good time as well. Food was good, drinks were great and the companions - what else to say :) Of course for me it continued to MP. Darn…. I thought of having just 1 drink there. I knew it would be empty except for some regulars….. I did have my one and AndyMP joined and that 1 multiplied to many and I left around 2. Shite. But it was good hanging out with him and we had good time talking.

I slept with my cat last night. He’s getting angry because I’m putting my leg where he’s curled up. What the fuck! Then where do I put my leg!! In the end he slept in between my legs on the comforter. Near my feet not crotch.

This must one of the most boring posts I have written. That’s because I’m bored like hell!

It’s going to snow tomorrow. Yay…. That’s what some people are predicting. Snow in KL? If that happens then its confirmed 2012 will be coming earlier. Except for Nik – she follows another calendar. Her doomsday is on 2010.

The email was forwarded some time ago and I got it again today from another person and again for another colleague. My sister’s reply was quite funny – she said it doesn’t matter if it snows or whatever happens tomorrow but right now it’s so freaking freezing in her office and she feels like in a fridge. Hahahaha….. Actually it is cold I’ve got to admit. My colleagues in the office are with their winter cloths especially deeps. Some wears the woolly socks with dangling balls (makes my imagination go wild here..hehehe). Some hibernate….

Holy shit. I’m feeling cold? Then confirm its going to a 2012 story.
I don’t feel so cold and that’s why I have my own fan beside me. Actually I need it especially when I get into the office in the morning. It takes awhile for me to cool down and without the fan I’d be sweating like a dog. Then as the day goes it gets colder but its still ok for me. I would say…comfortable. But quite recently I’m feeling a bit too cold myself – a shivering cold. Even my hands are cold and that is very unusual for me. (I’m always warm…really)

Anyway…what’s the point again. Yeah….it’s going to snow tomorrow and it’s getting too cold around.

I’m feeling a bit cold today but I think that’s because I had slight flu in the morning. Now its gone.

The Monarch dynasty is not around. Including the self appointed director… but its Thursday today. Busy day.
For the editorial side.

The cameraman said that I look so big compared to all my family members. Not offended at all but looking at the pictures…I was like…Gosh… hahaha

Time for smoke. Lazy to write anything. Brain freeze.

Graduation Flowers....happy happy

I am so happy. In fact if I was any fairer I would have looked red, blushing like just got out of an oven.

I got flowers from the guys in office. That is the sweetest thing!!! A big THANK YOU to Melisa, Deepa, Indran, Ralphael and Hasnani. Thank you all so much.

I love you guys (feels like a celebrity suddenly). Who cares – I want to enjoy that moment before the feeling goes off.

It was Ivory Roses and they are so beautiful.

Photos to be uploaded soon… (camera in the phone is not functioning).

I’m so happy. Yayaya….. Feel like parading the roses to everyone on the street. Who am I kidding? I’m just toooo shy to do that. Hahaha…

This is the first time I have received flowers from someone else. I have never received it :) I have only bought them before.

Thank you. Thank you so much guys.

Hmm….maybe when I bring back to roses to my house and certainly they will ask from whom and I’ll say ‘secret admirer’. Hehehehe…… That will my sisters and mum excited. Evil plan lurks in mind. Ok what is evil about it again? Damn I’m becoming crazy!

Yeah crazy…so what? I got flowers…. Do you get any? No right!!! Jealous aren’t you with me….. ahh….now it sounds a tiny bit evil.

Love you guys :)

Checking out

Was reading some stuff over the net again and came across this. Little bit related to what happened during lunch today. Yeah I check out girl’s asses and guys as well and their boobs and chest, arms, face… everything – you name it. As far as my eyes can take. :) I mean looking at strangers’ yea…not my friends: D

Looking because they are nice, pretty, worth commenting and saluting, bravo, beautiful….. Just like I tell to everyone from before and in fact even I’m sick of hearing myself saying the stale reason..hahaha – “like looking at a beautiful flower…you admire it…”

It’s all for fun folks.

Anyway…

And men do check out other things as well in a person. Read below and thanks to Shine from Yahoo. (Wonder when I’m going to get sued for copyright infringement)

What are the 4 things Guys notices instantly?

According to a new study, a person’s physical appearance allows others to form surprisingly accurate first impressions. So you may want to think twice about what kind of image you’re projecting with these traits dudes check out immediately.

1. Your Smile

Does it seem sweet and genuine? Does it seem awkward and forced? Does it seem like you ate a sesame-seed and parsley salad for lunch based on what’s lodged between every single one of your teeth? Steal these tips to glam up your grin.


2. Your Hair

Guys have no idea what split ends are, and if you mention roots, they just think of the band. But they do look to see if your hair looks 1. soft and 2. as though it would smell good. So don’t request “The Gosselin” at the salon, and wash it every so often. That’s all guys ask.

3. Your Cleavage

Newsflash: Dudes like to look at your chest. (They aren't the only ones who like to compare cleavage. We're addicted to this new game.) Now, that’s not to say they think all women should unbutton their shirts to their bellybuttons at funerals. (Though really, who are guys to judge?) But they will notice how you’re showing off what you’ve got.


4. Your Skin

You know that blemish you’ve been obsessing over all day because it’s so huge? Chances are guys won’t even notice. What will they notice? If you look like a jaundiced Oompa-Loompa because of overenthusiastic tanning.